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NESY: I have reached my limit

2009-10-20T09:45:00.002+08:00

Not funny....Yes, I have reach my maximum weight...and its NOT funny...And seriously, i need to do something about it...And seriously, Im going to quit all the sweet stuff...including my favourite CHOCOLATES...well, at least for a month!

Hopefully...I don't look as bloated as now when i got back Malaysia in a month time...Move NESY!

Thought of The Day: I have a great diet. You're allowed to eat anything you want, but you must eat it with naked fat people.

NESY: Nothing's gona change our love

2009-10-18T00:35:00.005+08:00

#If I had to live my life without you near me
The days would all be empty
The nights would seem so long
With you I see forever oh so clearly
I might have been in love before
But it never felt this strong

Our dreams are young
And we both know they'll take us
Where we want to go
Hold me now
Touch me now
I don't want to live without you

Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You ought know by now how much I love you
One thing you can be sure of
I'll never ask for more than your love

Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You ought know by now how much I love you
The world may change my whole life through
But nothing's gonna change my love for you

If the road ahead is not so easy,
Our love will lead the way for us
Like a guiding star
I'll be there for you if you should need me
You don't have to change a thing
I love you just the way you are
So come with me and share the view
I'll help you see forever too....#

♥ Life is short and unpredictable, but Im always glad...I found you! Thank you for being there for me every second of my life. May God continue to bless us and guide us ♥

*Thought of The Day: True love comes quietly, without banners or flashing lights. If you hear bells, get your ears checked.

WORLD FOOD DAY: The World is HUNGRY

2009-10-16T14:07:00.006+08:00

Demonstrators attended the protest, lied down on the steps of the Opera Garnier in Paris to highlight the one billion people in the world who have been pushed into hunger in 2009

October 16, World Food Day, let us reflect on those numbers and the human suffering behind them. Crisis or no crisis, we have the know-how to do something about hunger. At a time when the global economic crisis dominates the news, the world needs to be reminded that not everyone works in offices and factories. The crisis is stalking the small-scale farms and rural areas of the world, where 70 percent of the world's hungry live and work.

Dont....Don't take food for granted.

Thought of The Day: Hunger denies, wastes, and degrades the gift of life.

UFO exists?

2009-10-15T20:17:00.006+08:00

The recent halo cloud over Moscow, an ominous ring-shaped cloud. Some claimed its the return of Unidentified Flying Objects (UFO), while some claimed that its purely optical effects. So what do you think? Does UFO exist?

Thought of The Day: No God, no peace. Know God, know peace

NESY:情歌

2009-10-14T01:02:00.001+08:00

天长地久.... This song really made me cry alot!

Thought of the Day: 命运好幽默让爱的人都沉默, 一整个宇宙换一颗红豆

NESY: At least I tried :)

2009-09-18T16:47:00.008+08:00

Like expected, I didn't get an offer for India placement next year. Sad? Yes definitely.. It would be a bunch of craps if I say I don't really care, since I really did apply for it and went for the interview. At least, I applied, I got an interview, and I experienced before, and I didn't give myself a chance to regret about it! I know God must had a better deal in store for me! :)

Giving up? No way, its Nesy! I still have the chance to go rural areas and Singapore for placements! I shall learn from my mistakes, get ready for the upcoming challenges!

You know what's the best thing I learnt out of this incident? I felt LOVED. Sms supports fulled of smiley faces from Dad, telling me how proud he is to have a daughter like me, LJ who helped me with my interview practise and the last minutes of support...In the end, its really the ongoing process that really matters.

For those two who got the India placements, you guys really deserve it :)

* A hug from JJ jr just made my day :D

Big hugs for everyone. Hold on tight to happiness, for it is invaluable!

*Thought of The Day: Arm ourselves for war? No! All the arms we need are for hugging.

NESY: Life and dreams

2009-09-16T09:42:00.007+08:00

#Caterpillar in the tree
How you wonder who you'll be
Can't go far but you can always dream
Wish you may and wish you might
Don't you worry hold on tight
I promise you there'll come a day
butterfly fly away
You got your wings now you can't stay
Take those dreams and make them all come true
BUTTERFLY fly away..#

Recently a bit lost and anxious... but I know....my day will come...someday...holding on tight to my dreams and faith... :) You never know whats in store for you, that's life!

*Thought of the Day: Life is a climb, but the view is great.

NESY: 15.09.2009

2009-09-15T15:59:00.007+08:00

September 15th..

It is always one of the most memorable day in the Vun's family.

Since 15-12-2006, 15 is always OUR lucky number.

Since 2007 I knew her, its her special day as well- Miss LingWeng.

Hence, HAPPY BIRTHDAY to my dearest one and only BEST MUMMY in the world, without you there's no boy boy and wei wei! We love you mum! S2

Secondly, HAPPY 33 to US! I heart you and may we have forever! Thank God I found you! S2

Thirdly, MISS Wong...Happy 22nd birthday! :) May all your dreams come true!

*thought of the Day: People take different roads seeking fulfillment and happiness. Just because they're not on your road doesn't mean they've gotten lost.

JOE: getting busy

2009-09-14T22:24:00.007+08:00

Firstly, I am so sorry for our disappearance, for not updating the blog. Well, both of us were really busy spending time on studies and getting some 'private' time for ourselves. I have to admit that previously there were some arguments in between us due to distance and time management. But people ,we are cool and still happily ever. We had a great meet up during August, she had her blessed 22nd ( which she said she will talk about it like real SOON), and Im glad I still 'own' her!

Well, basically I am quite done with my ground school and simulators sections now. Im doing my SNY (Supernumenary flights) sections again, afterwards I will be having my final simulators session on 737-400, and I will be ready for my endorsement, to become an official co-pilot! Looking forward? Hell yes I am! But on the other hand, I knew Im gona spend less time with Nesy starting from next year onwards. But after all these, I am pretty sure we can walk by faith together and we can work out miracles out of difficulties!

Tomorrow's flight: KUL-KUA-BKI-KUL. Wish me luck! :)

*pss...tomorrow its our lucky 33! Happy 33 dumbiiii. I heart you!

*Thought of the Day: You haven't seen a tree until you have seen its shadow from the sky.

NESY: chocolates overdose+ distorted tooth = nightmare $$

2009-08-04T22:45:00.002+08:00

I must admit Im a chocolate lover (duh?!), Im not a good teeth cleaner as well, plus...I had a distorted tooth at this particular spot....In the end, it caused a disaster, to my poor mouth and my wallet $$. =(

So yeh, the distorted tooth had been sitting there quietly for quite some time until few years ago I was curious why my short toungue can touch the teeth easily. Under curiousity, I looked into the mirror and suprisingly found a 'third party' joining the 1st premolar of my upper teeth. When I went for my dentist appointment in Malaysia, one dentist advice me to get rid of it while the other one said just don't bother about it. Personally Im not a big fan of going to a dental clinic, course I will be happy to not bother about it!

As time goes by, the extra little tooth started to have some 'little actions', trying to get some attention from me, sometimes it can be very painful, sometimes it just sits there quietly. I always ignored it, until YESTERDAY, when I was working, it suddenly alarmed me NON STOP. Taking two tabs of neurofen did make it to be obedient, but only temporary, for a few hours. In the end, I just can't stand it, I google and searched some nearby dental clinic contact numbers. Some just said: Oh, the earliest appointment is next week, oh, you will need to wait for another three days.... Im like WHAT? My tooth is aching now, I CANT WAIT. Luckily there's this friendly lady suggested me to this particular so called emergency dental clinic. In the end, they will see me tomorrow morning. I CANT WAIT!

During the night, I did hesitate to remove or not to remove the tooth, because I knew its going to cost me a bomb! So I used a mirror to see how the poor tooth looked like now. Surprise surprise, its DECAYED and part of it had turned black! Yukssss.... So I had decided, no matter how, I shall go for the dentist! God bless me! =(

This was how my poor 'third party' looked like in my oral cavity, right next to my 1st premolar.

A closer look of it, can you actually see the blackened bit? =S Yukks nesy

So I went to the clinic today, the operator told me that I will need to go to the SURGICAL CLINIC. My heart sunk. * Oh good gracious, is it THAT bad? SURGERY?* So off I went to another surgical clinic, waited for 15 minutes, finally my turn. The dentist was nice and friendly, but from the moment she said she needs to take an X- ray for my teeth, shes a DEVIL WOMAN! I sensed something BAD. So after the X ray result, she told me I will need a minor surgery for my decayed tooth, since its involving the tooth, gum and bone. She will need to take out my partial gum! She asked me:' Ka Mei, how can you stand the toothache for so long?' Im like...ok...I never really had a major toothache until yesterday?

Hence I put on a sunglasses, she switched on the tv which was situated at the ceiling, it was very comfy...thats IF you don't have to face a tooth surgery! She injected 4 syringes of local anaesthetic drug (which i think its lidocaine) into my cheek, gum and the premolar tooth. Everything that happened next wasn't that scary, i can just felt pressure in my mouth, seeing her using bone curettes, extracting forceps... and FINALLY, the stubborn decayed tooth is out! All i can taste in my mouth is blood. The dentist gave me a pack of antibiotic and pain killers (codeine forte).

My after look, say goodbye to decayed 'third party'.

I still went to uni, and my besties took me for Baskin Robbins which was really sweet of them! And yes, still went for my lab class. Everything was alright, with a bit of pain, so i took two tabs of Codeine forte. I thought everything will be alright. After roughly an hour, while i was standing and listening to what the lab assistant was trying to tell us, I BLACKED OUT! Excess blood loss? Codeine that causes drowsiness? Insufficient food intake? I don't know!=S Well thank God for good friends around that always give support and care and help =)

The two prescribed drugs. Label 1 for sexy codaigin.

My disgusting decayed tooth!

Thought of The Day: Tooth decay was a perennial national problem that meant a mouthful of silver for patients, and for dentists a pocketful of gold.

NESY: and hence, tata winter holidays 2009

2009-08-01T18:25:00.003+08:00

Yes, time flies, within a glimpse, without you even notice it. Apart from the weather (rainy), everything turned out really good! Great Melbourne, Adelaide trip, great spending time with friends in Perth, and yes, THANK GOD!

This blog was unofficially abandoned for quite some time due to the fact that both the pig and polar bear were busy with their stuff. Piggy me was busy working, polar bear was and is still busy with his sim and exams. On behalf of him, i apologize to all of you! =)

Talking about working, it was GOOD! Working in a pharmacy made me learnt alot and prompted me to know more. Though standing 9-11 hours per day isn't fun AT ALL, and when there's no customers, its bored to the max, overall, Im glad with the outcome.At least now Im starting to get better in guessing the doctors' handwritings? And speaking about the 500 hours that we need to complete before graduate, im a step nearly! Haha.... But frankly speaking, deep in my heart, I know this isn't what I want. To be a community pharmacist is always my last choice, I always wanted to be a clinical pharmacist. But we all know our ways or dreams are never God's ways, so let's just see how God's gona take me in my journey. =)

This semester will be the last semester in uni. Startin next year onwards, all of us will be dealing with our rotations, getting ourselves working in the unknown community. Isn't that GREAT that we can finally say goodbye to our stressful and tired uni life? I guess not, I guess Im starting to miss the time having lectures at lec halls with friends, having lunches together, gossiping this and that, enjoying ourselves in labs....Arrgh....that's just life. I guess I must learn to appreciate this last semester with my besties =) And yes, this semester 'looked' easy and relaxing, at least less lectures and labs, but nobody knows whats laying in the future, so who knows...=S so i must NOT take it tooo easy...mmm..

Winter had made me gained some extra unwanted pounds, I am trying to say NO to sweet things and motivating myself to MOVE MORE SIT LESS EAT LESS. I wonder if i could do it. hmm...I will try...

Oh well, to end this post, i shall share with you all my recent fav song:

Mariah Carey's I'LL BE THERE

This song really touched my heart, it really motivated me! Isn't that GREAT when you know there's hope, faith and LOVE in life? =) Keep on moving people!

Thought of the Day:Hope is a universal language.

NESY: God's creation-Melbourne & Adelaide 2009

2009-07-17T11:08:00.003+08:00

Yes, had been officially back from my Melbourne and Adelaide trip for a few days. Well, there were bad things that had happened, but indeed it was a great trip...Get to indulge myself in lots of great food and to see my beloved brother! It was impressive to see how great God's creation is and how much things around me that I had never noticed and appreciated before...Ahhh.... I really gained alot out of this trip and of course...gained some *should said ALOT* of weight as well. Oh well, this post will be about sceneries... I shall talk about food in the next post =) Again, let's give the photos a chance to do the talk!

Melbourne City Evening View

A view from 88 storeys Eureka

St. Kilda Beach, it was a gloomy day... I was impressed by the different layers and colors of the clouds.

Mornington Peninsula

Great Ocean Road, the 12 apostles

Ashcombe's Maze

Breathtaking Lavender

Adelaide's evening (personally I love this photo the most!) The sky made me thought of cotton candies

A church that appeared in the middle of Hahndorf German Village

I love travelling, because everytime when you step your feet into a new place, you will definitely gain something out of it, either the goods or the bads, but..it doesn't really matter. What really matters is... We appreciate it!

* For those of you who are curious what happened to Joe, yes...he's in a hectic time now. He's getting towards the end of his Simulator sessions for 737-400. He's getting excited to complete it, and of course...towards the coming of August. Well..you will all know why later =)*

Thought of The Day: Slow down and enjoy life. It is not only the scenery you will miss; you will also miss the sense of where you are going and why.

NESY: when things went wrong

2009-07-04T20:22:00.009+08:00

Yes I am in Melbourne now, other than missing LJ...everything was meant to be happy and enjoying my holidays....I did enjoy myself...but luck doesn't seem to be on my side and bad things happened again and again....

Firstly, MY CAMERA IS DEAD. ZL accidentally slipped out of her hand, and opps it hitted the floor.. since then, the lens was kind of destructed....and all images came out to be blurred. Goodbye to my dear Sony 8.0 cybershot. It was from daddy...It not even 1 year old! Sigh....Friends around me telling me Sony ain't good, look at the bright side, get a new one!Yeh it will be easy to be said when things aint happen to you! So in the end, I got myself a sexy new gadget Canon Ixus. I must admit it can do better job than the previous one! And Im so in love with it!

A precious gift from daddy..sniff..RIP

My new sexy Canon ixus

So when I was happily loving my new camera, things got worst.. I LOST MY WALLET! Someone in the grocery shop had stolen my wallet when i was chosing stuff! I was soooooo pissed and frustrated when i couldnt find my wallet in my bag. We told the boss and they review the video and we found out that its these three bloody CHIxA ass who had stolen my wallet! If you want money, just grab it and return the wallet to me! What Im despair of wasn't losing the money but its the wallet itself that was meaningful. It was a 21st birthday gift from my brother!!!!ARRRRGHHHHH....I swear, I will NEVER want to be fat from NOW on because the person who had stolen my wallet was a BIG FAT PIG!

It was a precious meaningful gift from brother which i loved so much...sniff...RIP

I had learnt my lesson, though I paid a big price for it, but this made me learnt to appreciate and BEWARE of things happening around me. Lord, forgive my sins and others sin, make me learn from my mistakes, and to learn to forgive and forget! And Im happy, I still have my beloved brother and LJ here for me! I love both of you guys!

Thought of the Day: There is nothing in the world so wonderful as to love and be loved; there is nothing so devastating as LOVE lost.

JOE: more than HAPPY and TOUCH!

2009-06-20T17:16:00.008+08:00

This is an awesome day....its not only about my birthday....Its about how she made my day and how truly touched i am.

Well, obviously its my 23rd birthday today. And it was quite a normal day for me as there's nothing much for a guy's birthday. Well, before today, Nesy surprised me with this limited edition diecast model MAS A330-200. I was surprised to recieved this parcel way days ago! Well... of course I love it so much! Its plane man!

Limited edition Freedom of Space Heliconia and Limited edition Visit Msia 2007

And this morning, when we were skyping.....she acted a bit weird: hyper, excited, kept telling me eating chocolates will make my day happy, she said shes gona send two planes to my house in another two hours time. Im like??? Okay....She's weird....But I couldnt tell there's such a big 'conspiracy'....

So...while she's getting ready to go to ikea, I called her mobile....and while we were onda phone, my house phone rang; my sister picked up the phone...'Hi, is this LUP JOE LOW's house? Please DO NOT tell him I called, I actually need to deliver a cake to your house, but im LOST! Can you teach me the way?' And my sister passed the phone to me!!!!! Arrgh....dummie...So the guy asked me the direction to my house. And im thinking to myself, hmmm....is this her great masterpiece? Then I told her..'Bii....Someone called me and tell me there's a cake delivery. All i can hear from the other side of the phone is SHXT!!! Lol...Surprise DONE by her... All I was thinking is...ok....a cake only....

Well, after 15 minutes... a car came...and the guy passed me a box of cake? NO...choc CUPCAKES...I was literally shocked and surprised! The cupcakes really melted my heart! Nesy told me she designed the cupcakes, told the person what type of design she wanted....and pop...here's the masterpiece that bright up my day! Pictures speak louder than words:

The Box of surprise

Gorgeous LOVELY Cupcakes

Thank you so much!

I thank God for her and I thank God I am such a blessed person. As for my birthday wish, I hope I could complete my sim asap and may God continue to work in me! And a great future for Nesy and I! I felt loved and God bless everyone!

Thought of the Day: You are only young once, but you can be immature for a lifetime.

JOE: The unfamiliar roads

2009-06-14T09:20:00.000+08:00

Troubles often lie ahead when we go down the unfamiliar pathways.

That day I saw a kid who decided to cross the road in his own way. He went straight across the roads without bothering the red lights. Within a few seconds, he did stop, but not for a stop sign. He was pull over by a gentleman in his police uniform, it cost him an amount of money to learn about unfamiliar roads.

What would happened if a guide had accompanied him or someone next to him to tell him the right way to get across the road and alert him there's danger ahead? For sure he won't be paying the fine. And this reminded me of what I read previously in 'Our Daily Bread':

Same theory applied to our life. In life we often have to walk down unfamiliar paths, paths that may feel thereatening and uncomfortable. So what do we do without making costly mistakes?

We take someone along who knows the way. The psalmist recognized that guide he wrote:" Lead me O Lord, in your righteousness....Makes your way straight before my face" (Psalm 5:8)

Does your path today seem unfamiliar? Ask your Father to travel the road with you. The spirit within us will faithfully guide us! God bless!

(* Had been on simulator class since 2am till now. Weird class time hey? But yes, very statisfied and I can't wait till my endorsement!)

*Thought of the Day: Teach me you way, O Lord, and lead me in a smooth path.- Psalm27:11

NESY: Something from the WISH LIST

2009-06-10T20:59:00.009+08:00

Lomo 3 lens robot style action film camera

I just LOVE how the photos looked..unique

Lomo 4 lens butterfly style action film camera

Now you get a combination of four photos in a go

Its not the matter of the price (*in fact it isn't pricey at all), it is really about compliance issues (LOL...patient compliace? Pharmacotherapy overdose). It has been on my wish list since ages ago. Well, from these cameras you won't expect high quality of photos, neither you will get a preview of the photo after you had taken it, because its a film camera. And the only concern is, will I be that passionate to keep on playing with it, paying money on the films, getting it developed and scan into the computer? That's the harsh thing. Well, might ask myself not to be so rational and just BUY it (*Just like how you buy shoes Nesy!) I personally really LOVE the 3 lens camera effect!

It might just be a good toy for my Melbourne and Adelaide trip! Gahhhhhhhhhhh..... So tempted...=) Photos always bring a smile to my face!

Ok, I shouldn't be here. 2 down, 3 to go... And Pharm Prac, I honestly dislike you, you are just a piece of dry, barren, unattractive unit. But it will be the end of the world too without rules and regulations.. Ok... Why do I bother about these issues? No matter how, Miss Venesy, you will still need a PASS for all units. Shhhhhhhh...

*Thought of The Day: There is only you and your camera. The limitations in your photography are in yourself, for what we see is what we are.”

JOE: Stories,Stories...

2009-06-05T09:47:00.035+08:00

Its almost fortnight since the last post from Venesy,everyone must be wondering where the heck is she?No worries,the reasons are because her lappy broke down plus shes having her exam week so, such a mess there.God Bless,she can do well in her coming BIG exams. Since I’ve nothing to do,and yet my simulator sessions kept canceling(which really pissed me off!)therefore,I decided to ease the cravings some of you readers out there with some recent occurence around me and throughout the world.I’ll kick start with my lovely pups,

Breed:Doberman(maternal)+Rottweiler
Weird combinations but yea,their mother was actually being ‘violated’ during a routine walk around the park.The ‘process’ was so fast with the father left with no trace!ish.There are actually 7 of them,YES!7 of them.Guess its normal for dogs to give birth to many pups.

Isn’t she cute?inheriting the dad’s colour.I named her Joker for her Joker-liked smileee.But the sad thing is my mom doesn’t let me to keep them as it is hard to look after 8 doggies.We argued few times over this but still,she made her decision.So,we have to send them away.sob!Dad sent them to SPCA,which is an animal welfare organization…hmm,at least a shelter for them…

Goodbye Joker!!Goodbye the rest!and don’t worry,we will take great care of your mother!Live strong!!God Bless!

Teacher taught us to be environmental friendly since we were small,love the nature,recycle the waste products,plant more trees…however,things started to go the other way as the shady tree that was growing peacefully just outside my house has to be chopped down for good.Its a huge tree that stood tall there for more than 20years,providing us natural sun shades.wonderful memories,wonderful experience with it,..its just like a part of our properties..what a wonderful tree it was!!

One day,these government personnels came by and knock!!knock!!hello mam,the tree outside your house is too big and possesses a great amount of danger to your house especially during this stormy season and we just have to chop it off for safety reason.Anytime it could collapse towards the house as it is inclining more towards the house…bla,bla,bla.

Sigh!another sad news again as its been there for ages.more or less,there are still lovely memories left behind.may you RIP.GoodBye!sob

AIR FRANCE FLIGHT 447

A news that shock the aviation world,in fact the whole world where this Airbus330-200, a highly sophisticated and computerized aircraft vanished during flight.

Airline : Air France

Flight num.: AF 447
Variant : Airbus 330-200 ( Value: $185.5 mil, Entry into service : 2005 )

Total Pax : 228 ( 12 crews, 126 men, 82 women,7 children, 1 baby ) ( max : 253 )
Captain : Captain Marc Dubois ( 58-year-old )
Route : Rio de Janeiro ,Brazil – Paris ,France
Accident : 1st June 2009,Atlantic Ocean
Condition : Suspected electrical failures caused by heavy thunderstorm and turbulence ( 4 hours into the flight ).
Fatalities : 228 lives

June 2 - debris is spotted a few hundred miles off the coast of Brazil that may be from AF447. The passenger list from the flight is expected to be released soon by Air France.

June 3 - debris is confirmed to be that of Air France 447. A debris field of several miles is being searched.

Relatives and friends of Air France flight 447, which was reported missing on its way from Rio de Janeiro to Paris, attend a mass in Rio de Janeiro, Thursday, June 4, 2009. Air France has told families of passengers on Sunday's flight 447 that the jetliner broke apart and they must abandon hope that anyone survived, a grief counselor said Thursday as Brazilian ships neared debris bobbing in the Atlantic.

Relatives and friends of the passengers of Air France's flight 447 leave the Candelaria cathedral in Rio de Janeiro after an ecumenical church service on June 4, 2009

Former pilot Milton Junior is coming to terms with the loss of his wife. Isabel Kestler boarded an Air France flight in Rio de Janeiro that vanished over the Atlantic Ocean on Monday.

Imagine the feeling of waiting your beloved ones and he doesn’t show up for the rest of the life…it is just the most despairing and heartbroken thing ever happen..

The two Americans aboard a missing Air France plane were a geologist and his wife headed to Europe for work and vacation.

This just reminded me and of course all of the readers that how much we need to appreciate lives and our loved ones.God Bless!

Search and rescues continues with now the priority switched to find the evidences leading to the disaster after confirming there are no survivors.

#May the 228 passengers on board Air France Flight 447 rest in peace!

Thought of the Day : Spend a minute or two think back who meant alot to you,that you cannot live without them...Cherish the moments while they are still here before its too late~

Nesy: i need one more miracle...

2009-05-24T21:18:00.005+08:00

PLEASE....wake up lappy, its not the right time to hibernate and bring everything to an and...Your not yet finish with your master's project, you haven't go through her upcoming exams with her yet....You are only 5 months old! Your YOUNG!!! AHHHHHH..... This is the WORST night of my life... Please...I just want you back!

I don't want a new one, I just want YOU back!

Thought of the Day: There's always ups and downs in life, endure with it, every cloud has its silver lining.

Nesy: There can be miracle

2009-05-21T19:36:00.004+08:00

'There can be miracles
When you believe
Though hope is frail
Its hard to kill
Who know what miracle
You can achieve
When you believe
Somehow you will
You will when you believe...'
-Mariah Carey~

After all tests and exam, I couldn't believe...I PASSED EVERYTHING, including the so called hopeless COMPOUNDING TEST ( indeed, I got quite a high mark for it!). Bloody chemo exam really did give me a HUGE relief ! (Here's the strange system that works in our batch: You fail this exam, you will go straight back to second year next year....Which means, instead of fourth year for me next year, I will be going back to SECOND year IF i fail!) RAR....Arrgh...thank you Lord...thank you so much for your blessings!

Now the big deal is the upcoming exams in June... Now thats HORRIBLE TERRIBLE VEGETABLE! Sigh, less than a month time now before the war begins! And yes, rather than stressing here, I shall really start my study asap... Walking in faith and endurance, I CAN DO IT!

Thought of the Day: Exams are like old-age homes, except for the fact that more people 'die' in exams.

NESY: screwed up

2009-05-18T17:59:00.006+08:00

I hate to admit....but the fact is..I screwed up my bloody compounding test...Sigh....crossed finger I am eligible for a supp/ I don't even need a supp. Four products I only finished like three. Out of three, one I wrote the label wrongly...which is...25% flew away....so two left, one I forgot to put C&A label, one I wrote the wrong formula...what are the chances for me to pass? You think about it.

I must not give up... Two tests to go: Chem Prac test tomorrow, Dispensary test on Wednesday; after that I need to stand for 6 hours [working] again. Busy week.... I must endure!

Today, I learnt my lesson, I will never EVER believe and rely on someone anymore.... Felt betrayed...its like...all these while I'm treating you as one of my close friend, to help you out in any circumstances. And now, what happens when I shouted for a little help? Sigh...but.. life goes on...Learn to forgive and forget? But one thing for sure, there will always be a scar on a broken glass.

Luckily... I still have my greatest ZL and Sally to sob and roar with me. =) and of course, my best LJ...always there trying his best to cheer me up and loading me with love pils...I love you all!

Still, thank you Lord for the day. May I continue to walk in faith. I will continue to smile! Now your turn to smile! =)

Thought of the Day: The greatest gift is not found in a store nor under a tree, but in the hearts of true friends.

joe: how we came across

2009-05-15T20:59:00.007+08:00

Came across some of our photos which I thought I might share with you all...Its quite a dramatic change between both of us, either physically or mentally....

When we just met...2006 September ( I know...we looked dumb)

Us Septemeber 2007

Us February 2008

Us June 2008

Us July 2008 (When she just had a super short hair cut =S )

Us November 2008

Us February 2009

The latest US

And I just wana say..... its fate that brought us from different places to know each others (I cant imagine what will happen if you never came back to KL..You might be a great lawyer in Melbourne now! With an Aussie dude?) Its God's blessings that brought us together as a couple. Im glad I know you and have you! May we continue to grow in love and understanding! Happy 29th!

Thought of the Day: When you love someone, all your saved up wishes start coming out.

NESY: Lavender....

2009-05-14T07:44:00.002+08:00

I LOVE lavender since i was young....and there's this taiwan series that prompted my love and craziness for Lavender, a series is called LAVENDER... The centre of attention was defnitely NOT the main actor (no offence I think he looks..weird?), it was the story plot...and the songs! The songs, either the opening or the ending, really touched my heart! Very meaningful indeed...

That was my favourite part of the movie... Cried whenever i watched this ending....rar... *venesy stop acting like a teenager!* but yeh....I really...LOVE this song, its called 幸福的瞬间, THE MOMENT OF HAPPINESS...as u listen to this song and reading da lyrics, trust me...you will be touched!

*Thought of the Day: Gratefulness is the key to a happy life that we hold in our hands, because if we are not grateful, then no matter how much we have we will not be happy -- because we will always want to have something else or something more.

So we think we can dance?!....Enjoy! =)

2009-04-29T23:43:00.005+08:00

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*Thought of the Day: We should consider every day lost on which we have not danced at least once. And we should call every truth false which was not accompanied by at least one laugh.

Nesy: Can I work in your bakery??

2009-04-27T08:37:00.007+08:00

Recently my housemate has been bringing back heaps and heaps of goodies for us...for FREE!! And one of the items is BREAD! Apparently her friend works in the bread factory, and you get to grab infinity bread loaves, pancakes for free!

Friends around me will definitely know how much I LOVE bread... (Joe: Thats why your face is bloated all the time, bread face!) Not to exaggerate it, but bread is like one of the BEST food created by human beings on earth! Bread or pasta? BREAD! Bread or rice? BREAD! Bread or chocolates? Umm...BOTH!

Breads just turn me ON

Please hire me to work in the bakery! Anyone??? =)

*Thought of the Day: All the honesty in the world ain't legal tender than a loaf of bread.

JOE: Hitting 36!

2009-04-25T21:27:00.013+08:00

Nah, not in the sense of age Im hitting 36! After today, it would had been 36 sectors of SNY (supernumerary flights). I was meant to do 30 sectors only, but yeh, no harm to learn more, fly more, and EAT more! Today was sort of my last SNY since for the rest of the 3 months, I will be stressing out with my 737-400 Simulator training.

My FO going through the checklist carefully.

Great sunset view from the cockpit in CAMBODIA

Meal of the day...LOVE the sashimi salmon salad

Desserts of the day

The simulator 737-400

The interior Cockpit

Gona stuck with this gorgeous baby for my next 3 months....one thing for sure,
IM GONA ENJOY IT!

*Thought of the Day: The engine is the heart of the plane, but the pilot is its soul.

Lets say HAKUNA MATATA

2009-04-23T18:16:00.006+08:00

HAKUNAMATATA.... From today onwards, this will be OUR blog, Joe and Nesy. Plus, this will be more of a PHLOG due to da laziness of both of us...Like us or hate us, your choice. =)

As for her, she will continue to live in her world of DRUGS, while he will continue to live in his world of PLANES, both of them will continue to live in the world of counting the blessings of GOD. So yes....stay with us, and walk the journey of life with us!

(*and oh yes, both of us love FOOD.. so please do expect there will be alot of posts regarding to FOOD...)

*Thought of the Day: When we lose one blessing, another is often unexpectedly given in its place.

ouch, Pokey day

2009-03-27T12:10:00.007+09:00

Hmm....it was neither black Friday nor I was blind. And the fact is, I had pricked myself twice yesterday. Funny? Kind of...Well, sense of humour is vital whenever PAIN is involved. The 'murderers' who were found to be guilty: a PIN and a 1mL 19 gage syringe:

#1. The so called SAFETY pin incident:

- Time of Incident: 7:48am

- Place of Incident: My comfy bedroom

- Site of injury: The sole of right foot

- Depth of wound: 1cm

- Level of pain (rate from 0-9): 6

And so, I was still happily to Uni for my lab class. Well, it was an interesting lab, dealing with aseptic techniques and syringes! Oh syringes....was, is and will be my favourite at all times! So while my lab instructor was giving us explaination, I was playing with the syringe...And opps..

#2. The syringe incident:

- Time of incident: 10:32am

- Place of incident: Sterile Lab

- Site of injury: Right thumb

-Length of wound: 0.4cm

- Level of pain (rate from 0-9): 1

Conclusion: My thumb isn't painful at all now. The sole of my right foot is slightly swollen and a bit painful whenever i walk, hmm..must be the PGs and histamines doing their work.

Well well well...At least I enjoyed my lab, was fun. We were given a so called little Red Riding Hood Basket, filling it with syringes, vials, gauzes, beakers, forcep and plasters, off we went into the sterile clean room. Inserting the needle into the vial did remind me of the first time when I learnt how to extract blood from someone's arm for blood test. Well, by comparing both the bung and the arm's texture, I bet i still like human arms! =D

My Little Red Riding Hood Basket

The Laminar Flow...

It claims that all the air that flow out are sterile. It made me felt that Im so healthy since Im breathing FRESH AIR! (LAME...)

Goodbye to the 1st five weeks of Uni, and hello to WEEK 6 soon..sigh =( Time flies....and that freaks me off! (aging)

*Thought of the Day: Pain is temporary. It may last a minute, or an hour, or a day, or a year, but eventually it will subside and something else will take its place. If you quit, however, it lasts forever.

in memories of...East Donnie

2009-03-21T08:16:00.016+09:00

I hate Window Vista, because everything seemed to be abnormal, chunky, complicated and NOT cool at all....It used up alot of my computer's memory....rar!! But one good thing about Vista is, you get to put some gadgets on the right hand side of your desktop which claimed to make your life easier and happier. At some point I do agree...You see, I added this slide show gadget, where it non-stop showing all the old and new photos from my photo albums...and I found some photos which spring up my memories of the old days:

Four years ago:

The recent:

EDSC....did brought alot of agonies to me (academically), but it did gather few of us from different places over the world, and created histories and memories for us.How I wish I could wind back the time.... As years passed by, things changed, people changed...But its the memories that never fade away... And Im sure, 10 years later, I will still miss them as much as now I am...=) (pss..I miss Melbourne!)

chop chop, enough with the memories....A tempo GOODBYE to my memories and HELLO to the art of cardiovascular...Good Morning Australia!

Thought of the Day: We do not remember days; we remember moments.

updates

2009-03-12T08:07:00.004+09:00

This blog has been kind of abandoned for months...Sorry about that...Its all due to HER laziness... Well, some updates about HER:

1. I had a wonderful summer break, GREAT FAMILY REUNION, GREAT FOOD!It was just so good to be home!

2. 3rd year study sucks, there's heaps more of studying to go compared with last year's study load. Felt cheated by the seniors who told us 2nd year is the hardest! =( and oh yes, not to forget the LOVELY 'matrix' timetable! Oh well, I just have to pray hard, study hard..and have faith in Him! I know God will watch over me =)

the interesting insane timetable

3. Im now living with my awesome bestie ZL. Life has been good for these few weeks. We cooked, we laughed, we slept together and we helped each others out all the time! Life is extra ordinary colorful when you met someone who can share anything with you!

4. I just finished watching this Singapore Series called Little Nyonya. ZL and I were really crazy about it. It was a really good TV series, impressed by the Singaporeans, and of course im proud of Malaysia! I shall blog about this series...some time later...I promise =)

5. I started to reach out even more for God, knowing that He's the only one I can count on. There are times when I looked back and regretted why didn't I spend more time in His words and going all the ways which is against His wills. May I learn to confess and repent my sins as I continue my life on this earth.

6. Relationships are easy to gain but hard to maintain and mend. Things didn't really work out recently, and Im still searching for the answers. I knew I wanted it so much, I never doubted the question of meant to be or not; but now...rather than thinking for myself, I should had really start thinking for others.

7. Curious about my diet plan? The answer is: NONE diet plan so far. I had been maintaining a not-so-fat-not-so-skinny but borderline of FAT size....(Im confused!) The mood of being on a diet to hit a 40+ has gone far far away.....well, yeh....I will...one day..someday...I promise=)

My recent addiction: Dove DARK Choc... Researchers found out that the flavanoids in dark choc reduce the BAD cholesterol. =)

Ok, thats all for now..I will try to keep this blog alive. And yes, I might just say goodbye to my beloved layout soon. And instead of a blog, Im considering to change it to a PHLOG .=D Suits lazy ppl like me!

Thought of the Day: When everyone turned their back on you, GOD is still always there for you!

car phobia

2009-01-19T09:59:00.004+09:00

For the sake of my dad and his job, I had been travelling on car to and from S'kan-KK for more than 8 times in a month! ( One way its like 5 hours ) rarrrr... The worst trip will be S'kan-Kudat!

You see, usually I don't get offended by road trips. The fact is, Sabah roads ain't as great as the Peninsula highways. Sabahans don't deal with highways, we deal with bumpy hill roads, where you drive round and round the hills, round and round.....and the consequence is...I vommitted non bloody stop! I guess only Sabahans understand how much we protect our rainforests and heritages!However, that doesn't imply we live in a third or fourth world state!

And yes, now everytime when I jump into the car, I will start imagining the roads....Arrgh...that just sucks...I wish I could get over with it!

But...psss...one good thing about this Skan-KK road trip is...I get to have durian half way through all the time, which is a bonus for me. If somebody ever ask did I vomit those durians out, no for the first few times, yes for the rest of the time...the good news is, I WON'T GAIN WEIGHT! the bad news is...SAY SORRY TO MY POOR OESOPHAGUS AND STOMACH!

Life....its all about gain and lost.....XD

Thought of the day: When all's said and done, all roads lead to the same end. So it's not so much which road you take, as how you take it.

the day u went away

2009-01-09T08:16:00.005+09:00

8th of January 2009,

holding your hands tightly,

seeing you lying next to me with your last breath,

and there you go with a smile on you face.

You will never hear my laughter or see this poem that I wrote;

you will never see the tears while Im writing this now;

you will never hold my hands,telling me softly how much you felt proud of me.

If dreams weren't dreams and dreams will come true,

I wouldn't be here, I would had be with you;

distance is always the thing that keeps us apart,

but you will always be in my heart.

Sitting at the place you used to sit,

I looked around with love and rememberance,

the rain passed me by, but not the memory of you;

I kneel and I pray:why did this happen so fast?

Here in the house the pain and memories persist,

I know God is taking good care of you now in heaven,

the joy and eternal life that you are cherishing now;

I know for that certain one day, I shall see you again in heaven.

*May you rest in peace, I will always love you, Grandpa.*

a tempo goodbye

2008-12-18T11:21:00.000+09:00

Leaving Oz in 8 hours time, quite excited as its been nearly a year I havent got back to my hometown.. and I miss my parents dearly!!!!=) And thinking of the food:seafood, mum and granny's cooking, ABC....rarrrrr...I can't wait! And definitely, I can't wait to see Pat and es LJ again! =)

May God bless me and grant me journey mercy, hopefully flight will be on time and I shall manage to transit back to KK!

So, I shall hereby say goodbye to you temporary, nesy SHALL BE BACK! Last but not least, wishing you all a very happy joyful christmas and new year!

MERRY CHRISTMAS AND A HAPPY NEW YEAR!

thought of the Day: The best of all gifts around any Christmas tree: the presence of a happy family all wrapped up in each other with the blessings from God.

a late hello

2008-12-17T17:52:00.018+09:00

I had abandoned my blog for quite a long time hmm....To be precise, I am actually enjoying too much fun and too much food and too much love.... And as a matter of fact, I am just too lazy to update my blog....and sooo...I shall just summarize what had I been doing these few weeks:

1. Back to Kuala Lumpur for a visit.

2. Paid my first visit to Penang.

3. Had FOUR buffets in 3 weeks time! ( I know...FATS ACCUMULATING)

4. Still food...eating...dessert-ing...!

5. Yes..Still food..Learning to cook!

6. Went for a drama in KLPAC..was good!
7. Back to Perth for a shortwhile, busy buying stuff back home for Xmas.

Lets just give the photos a chance to do their talking! Indeed, photos speak louder than words:

Jogoya buffet with their unlimited supply of coconut drinks! Bravo!

Highlight of the night: 9 sweet pinky roses from LJ. =)

Shogun Sunway buffet...My fav part of the day...=)

Deep fried chicken skin in Gurney Drive, Penang. Im so in love with it!

After visiting Chillis for so many times, this is my first time ordering their molten choc dessert. It is freaking nice. MUST TRY! See the abundant chocolate sauce flowing out???wulala..

German Strudel in Theobroma. Ppl, MUST pay a visit to Theobroma, its a bloody nice chocolate lounge!

LJ's master piece. He digged, he chopped and he cooked..all by himself. Looked nice, tasted brilliant!

LJ & I, our art of creation..homemade muffins =)

The Cave cafe in SS2, it was really pretty, more elegant and well furnished than I expected. Its like back to the Stone Age...really impressive cafe.

And yes, I went fish spa with LJ again..its just so fun! =)

There are so many photos to go...but for the sake of the blogger's laziness, forget about it...=) Overall, she is:

1. Happy.

2. Feeling bloated and fat.

3. Feeling blessed.

4. Thanking God for a fruitful year.

5. Excited of heading home to meet her parents TOMORROW! ( Country road, take me home...to the place,I belong...Sandakan...)

*and psss...I couldnt believe we hitted 24= 2 years! Its quite a long journey for me! And of course, I cant wait for our long journey to go...Thanks LJ! s2

I shall prepare myself for tomorrrow's flight, a happy and exciting heart to see mami and dadi again..wheeee.....=) thank you Lord for giving me a blessed family.

*Thought of the Day: Other things may change us, but we start and end with the family.

'tian tian quan' freako

2008-11-25T08:25:00.010+09:00

Now Im confused... I know this sounded stupid, confused for the sake of FOOD..Lol...oh well, I always thought that Krispy Kreme donuts are the best...after trying Big Apple for a few times, I think I will give my vote to Big Apple! They offer more flavours, and the main point is...their donuts are SOFTER...awww... (now Im craving for their Whitz Nut again...the moment the peanut butter bursted out and melt in your mouth, it feels like...HEAVEN!)

Krispy Kreme in Oz and round the world

Big Apple in Malaysia and round the world

Woop woop....there shall be more obsessions on erotic food to go in my blog...so bear with me. And yes, happy holidays now....not so....the feeling of awaiting result and yet trying to enjoy the holiday is complicated and its sucky...rar....

Now I miss two of them:

A great reflection of true friends

Thought of the Day: Strength is the capacity to break a chocolate bar into four pieces with your bare hands - and then eat just one of the pieces.

pre and post exam of sweet bitter sem

2008-11-20T09:00:00.004+09:00

Just a month before exam :

This was finished within a month.

During exam period:

This was finished within 12days.

Conclusion: Being a fan of Nescafe Gold for years, I shall still stick with it, still simply the best. I must admit Im a coffee freak.. But due to the fact that caffeine overloaded is NOT good for our lovely bodies and souls, hence I shall see my coffee next EOS exam =)

This...was fully utilized too during exam:

I used like 8 sachets of it in 2 weeks..Helped alot...saved my days. LJ is always thoughtful and caring enough =) thanks

And when all the woobly wambly timey wimey days had finally come to an end, it is time...PRISONBREAK..castings: Nesy n friends

First des: Zhong Chai Guan for dim sum brunch. Its a newly open chinese Restaurant. It got my vote for the best DimSum in Perth so far.

Next, if u ever ask me what is the best exercise for a girl I would answer you SHOPPING. You can burn your calories and get what you want at the same time. Why not?=)

A random pix of us three shopping and came along with the latest so called strippies sunnies..These are few of those normal edition...There are some with the strippies conquering the whole lenses..and I wondered who came out with this fancy fashion sense?

When the night falls:

Dinner at Llama Bar. Great western food served, and a very entertaining life band performance.I would say Im loving it! =)

A meal without dessert will be incomplete! Though we girls wanted cake for dessert so much, unfortunately shops that have fancy cakes were all closed. Hence:

Final Des: Icy Ice.Green tea ice as dessert after a meaty meal definitely won't go wrong.

And that's the end of the post exam celebration. And now the start of house shifting and holiday chapters. There shall be further updates for my new house new room, and of course more fun and excitements to live with darling ZL. =) (*psss...not to forget the post exam trauma: fear and worries for the result)

Three more days....And I will be seeing LJ...* greatest excitement and gift for post exam =D wheee....*

Thank you Lord so much for the abundant blessings you had given me throughout this semester. Though not everything turned out to be great, yet I know this is your way and you will never break me but to make me a better stronger woman. Thank you Lord, all I have is from you and may you continue to guide me through my life, teach me to learn to put everything unto your hands, forgive my sins and help me to learn to repent them.Amen.

*Thought of the Day: A new day, with a new sunrise, with a new hope, but with a forever the same Abba Father that will never abandon you but loving you unconditionally.

recipe for jiggly Wibbly-wobbly timey-wimey venesy

2008-11-17T17:45:00.002+09:00

3cups of tiredness

2 cups of excitements

2 cups of food craving

2 cups of feeling obese

1 1/2 cups of positive schizoprenia

1 cup of happiness

1 cup of worries

1 cup of home sick

1 cup of laziness

a tablespoon of relaxation

a tablespoon of spa craving

a pinch of Omp for pharmacognosy...

sigh....ONE to go....

*Just something random:

When the world turned its back on you, a good housmate + besty will always cheer you up...with something u love and need...thanks Winnie! yummylicious homemade biscotti =)

*Thought of the day: Stress is nothing more than a socially acceptable form of mental illness.

its raining inside...

2008-11-16T15:12:00.004+09:00

Fragile..

Un-understanded..

Lack of support..

Lost..

Stab in the heart..

Tortured..

Out of control..

Paranoid..

*I need...

the shortcut..

2008-11-12T23:20:00.012+09:00

The shortcut to walking long distances,

was the bombastically haughty and silken complexionedand scarlet cars;

The shortcut to waiting for rain to pelt down inharmonious unison from the sky,

was to stand under anincessant stream of artificial bathroom shower water,

The shortcut to speaking a hundred lies,

is utteringan irrefutably solitary yet formidably invincibletruth.

And her...

She took a shortcut,

browsing randomly through the overwhelmingly bulky notes...

And now...

SHE REGRETED...

(will LT and Crowey have pity & mercy on me?)

Still...she believes there's something like THIS:

With fingers crossed, may she make it til the end of the victory. With God..everything..anything...its POSSIBLE! =)

Thank you Lord, may I continue to grow in strength, teach me to be humble, to be more like Jesus...to shine for you! Amen.

(*Pss..its 15th again in another 40 minutes...one more month, it will be another annual journey..TQ for the journey, and TQ for making the BEST out of the LIMITED me =D)

*Thought of the Day: "For I know the plans I have for you," says the LORD."They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope."Jeremiah 29:11

Another brain needed desperately

2008-11-06T06:34:00.006+09:00

Like others, I am still happily surviving....NOT! But yeh, at least not suffering the neither positive nor negative symptoms of schizoprenia, depression nor anxiety. And oh yeh, not to forget, I DID NOT turn to food for stress relief this time. *clap clap* In fact, I suspected there's a DELAY in the synapses between my axon terminals! Or insufficient neurotransmitters produced? Where the heck are my nerves?????

This is my current poor brain capacity.

I need THIS specially made enlarged brain!

13 more days, so far yet so near. Where is the end point of it?Dear Lord,please guide the little girl through this as you always did. May you grant her wisdom and health, courage and strength. Amen.

*Thought of the Day: You already have great knowledge and you have access to much, much more. Achievement comes from using your knowledge to drive your actions toward the goals you have chosen.

i would like to propose a toast...

2008-10-31T23:18:00.008+09:00

And finally, she's 21.

Lovely homemade Boston Cake for HER by chef Nesy.

Our lovely malay + western + japanese + korean style Birthday brunch.

Dinner at Fibber McGee's

Maybe life will separate us,
Yet we'll always be best friends.
So may love, until life ends,in joy or sorrow not forsake us,
Sunshine on the darkest day.
Each breath of peace that fortune sends recalls a bond time that can't be betrayed,
A true friendship that means love and forever.

HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY ZL!

*Thought of the day: Growing old is mandatory; growing up is optional.

student card = house key

2008-10-24T17:55:00.003+08:00

Indeed, this is a technology era. VH, my on campus residential place was given this budget and chance by the Uni to improve the security problems. One of the task is to change the house and room locks to a computer system lock. Put it in this way, we the 'experimental white mice' have the privilige to enjoy the most updated student card= house key system to open ur door,either the house or ur own room. If it works well in VH, this system will be promoted to other on campus residential places. So..this is how it works:

The front door sensor.

Just put your student card in front of the sensor,dit dit...when the light turns green...OPEN SESAME.

The barrier to my room.

It works in the same way, student card, DitDit...Green light on, OPEN SESAME!

And oh yeh, its a waste of time for you to try to open VH houses' doors with your own student card unless ur one of the resident here. We the residents have a special coded student card for every unit and every room =)

So..goodbye to keys....

I actually quite like to flat house key though =)

*Thought of the Day: Prayer is the KEY to heaven, but faith unlocks the door.

land of euphoria--coming soon

2008-10-23T12:44:00.003+08:00

Do you see what I see?

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Stars glowing bright in the sky,

guiding her through the Land of Brittle Exams.

Marshmallows fell like snow falling,

shaped the paths that she could walk on.

-----

And beyond the bushes of Exams,

she forsees the other end of the world-

Land of Euphoria:

Ferrero Roche balls that she can bounce on,

Hershey Kisses as hats that she could wear.

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Chocolate cakes are Rocky Mountains,

Kit Kat bars are canoes floating on the lake made of chocolate milk,

Famous-amos are like comets hitting the lake,

crumble, crumble, crash!!!

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Cheesecakes are fluffy chairs next to the peaceful lake,

caramel popcorns are little daisy flowers blooming,

and finally ice creams colours mixed up,

painting a beautiful sunset in the sky.

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* One month to go...I shall see my Land of Euphoria =)

*Thought of the Day: When going through a crisis you must remember that you know GOD lavishly loves you. Ephesians 3:17

Blessed are the givers..but

2008-10-22T09:24:00.004+08:00

That is how much one of the beggar in China Xi An earns PER DAY. Local people had assumed that they earned more than a normal working person.

It is despair to see such a scene, its like they are playing on the heart- string and sympathy of human nature. A very good example, my dad. Last year when we went to Shanghai this lady came and beg for money. The tour guide actually WARNED us NOT to give a single penny to them. According to him this is the government's will. And yes, I ignored the lady. My dad, always with the biggest generous heart on earth, in the end gave her some money. Guess what happened? Im not exaggerating but the fact is there's this whole bunch of beggars roughly round 15 people came for my dad, begging for penny. In the end we had to literally run into a restaurant.

There's always this basic economic laws of Supply and Demand that controls social behaviour: "When a beggar receives a donation (pay for his begging), the market correctly interprets to mean that the market likes beggars and the result is that there are soon more beggars." So...to give or not to give?

China slowly needs to start looking over the needs of the very poorest who are the unfortunate but inevitable victims of the transition to capitalism, and start to deal with these so called beggars who are actually able to get a proper job and live a normal life. May God continue to bless China.

*Thought of the Day: Give the gift of your own smart, focused, enthusiastic action you recieved from God to the world today. There's immense value just waiting to be created, and now is the time to make it happen.

laughter--the best medicine

2008-10-19T16:00:00.006+08:00

Something random:

Just something random:

And finally....something serious...my master piece of pamphlet for Pharmacognosy, a herbal medicine named CHASTE TREE:

Sigh, time to get back to bloody Chemo....I truly believe that weather affects a person's mind and emotion. This is EXACTLY what Im going through now.HOT weather, SHORT temper.I wish...I wish for a cup of nice and cool ice cream now...(cookies and cream!) (Now this reminds me of YYM's 'ice cream heals' theory...)

*Thought of the Day: Nobody says you must laugh, but a sense of humor can help you overlook the unattractive, tolerate the unpleasant, cope with the unexpected, and smile through the day.

foodie doodie indulgence

2008-10-17T20:45:00.023+08:00

Who will ever say NO to food? Nobody! Food is one of the essential things in life. As for her, food is her second life. =) Where ever there's food, there she shall be...and yes, this included the Uni Pasar Malam.

Poster of the Pasar Malam, personally she likes it alot...piece of good art =D

Bunch of them went to the Uni Pasar Malam round 5pm. She was actually quite excited since it was her 1st pasar malam in Aussie. And yes, our sense of smell is really a powerful contributor to the experience of eating. The tinge of aroma of food had stimulated all of them to hunt for food, so off they went!

Ramlee burger stall.Malaysia boleh!

Baby octopus, rojak, 'put zai gou', nasi lemak

Satay, fried chicken, curry fishball, tantart

'Hum jin bang', the green thingy (my favourite), yam cake, apam balik

The stage

And the food hunters!

With bloated tummy, she's happy =) Yes the diet plan, she remembered. Oh well, a great food booster before the coming battle is necessary and reasonable right? =)

Great night, great weather, great food, great experience and great companions. Thank you Lord for tonight. I am blessed.

Thought of the Day: Food responses to our soul's dream as to our stomach's appetite.

The Battle within

2008-10-15T18:35:00.002+08:00

As they wandered through her room and among her piles of sorrow,

she was almost concealed.

They wrapped their covers carefully around her without making a sound;

no matter how soft they were, they bruise her brain;

not knowing the damage, a dreadful melody they sang.

Caged in their covers she started to worry,

she started to cry and her vision gets blurry,

she doesn't know where she should start from.

While starting to realize she was meant to love them,

her spirit slowly starts to dry.

If only she had heard their screams,

if only she could spend more time with them,

if only...

In memory of: A day of PMS...

#(felt heaps great after recalling its 15th today =D)

*Thought of the Day: The future depends on what we do in PRESENT.

Anti sweet tooth

2008-10-14T10:45:00.001+08:00

When SOMEONE (obviously herself) stuffed TOO MUCH of these:

When I see them as my stress relief food, people called it JUNK FOOD.

And these:

One of my best companions when Im having a sweet tooth

This is how SOMEONE will be ended up with.. SOON :

RARRRR!!

Food is part of her life, especially the sweet ones. Guess it is time for her to have a break in those heavenly food. Be patient, Malaysia food is waving to you!

Rewards of losing weight.Why not?

And yes, diet here I come to you again.

*Thought of the Day: One of the very nicest things about life is the way we must regularly stop whatever it is we are doing and devote our attention to eating.

Hi to darkness...

2008-10-12T20:30:00.005+08:00

It has been a while since I slept with lights on every night. Don't get me wrong, Im fine with darkness, plus...I LOVE darkness. Its just that ever since I had been in Perth,Im used to wake up everyday in light than in darkness, especially during the winter times. 8am class everyday, course I would be worry that I couldnt make it. I remember how exaggerated I was last year when I went to my housemate's room and studied with her. While we nap, she switched off the light, I was literally TOUCH and SPEECHLESS in that milisecond. I was saying: 'Ann, I haven't been feeling as happy as tonight! I haven't feel the darkness for ages.'

[Oh yes, to the girls..alot of studies found out that by sleeping with lights on there's a higher risk of having breast cancer. It has something to do with melatonin. =S]

I love darkness, I even love glow in the dark stars and moon. Its my all time favourite. Just love laying under the dark sky, seeing the glittery accents shining all over. By just thinking about it brings a smile to my face. Rather than sticking stars and moon on the ceiling, technology brought up this thing called the Star Laser Projector. It creates thousands of stars with or without blue cloud formations. It definitely caught my heart and my sight. And hence, till now... I am still dreaming a bedroom full of glittery stars or a galaxy ceiling. =)

LJ used to give me heaps of these.My room now is prettier because of these =)

My dream ceiling of galaxy =)

The star laser projector. Definitely in my dream list =)

And so, tonight... With lights off, say hi to darkness, say hi to my glow in the darks, and say...Buenas noches to myself...Starry starry night...(psss.... Do you think there are more stars in the sky than grains of sands on the beaches? I believe the galaxy is bigger hehe..)

*Thought of the day: Shoot for the moon. Even if you miss, you will land among the stars.

Antidepressants needed??hope needed??

2008-10-11T08:51:00.004+08:00

Does the word TRUTH scare you or excite you? The truth can be horrible...either your telling it or hearing it. Still, the truth heals but the truth hurts too. Yet some are only so called 'truth', the 'truth' made up by human gestures.

And as for human nature, we always focus on the negative truth more than the positive truth in a person, situation, or circumstances. It is said that for every negative statement we receive (or speak) wewill need five positives to counteract that negative. Seems like it is easier to give criticism than encouragement. So, why do we tend to pick out the bad in another than the good?

While reading the news I came across this heartache news. FOUR KOREAN STARS SUICIDE IN A MONTH.

安在焕、崔真实、张彩苑、金智厚

Apparently South Korea has the highest suicide rate in the world for these five years. SK police admitted that mental illness, even depression have been less discussed in SK. To them it is a shame and akward thing. Hence, suicide rate just increased as years go by. Question: The suicide evil spirit incantation attacks the South Korean entertainment world. Why? And who should be responsible for these? Themselves or the people who gave input in so called 'truth' and critisms?

Causes of death:

安在焕 -(Sept 9th) Under the pressure of huge debt, he committed suicide by burning charcoal in the car.

崔真实- (Oct 2nd) She can't withstand the so called 'truth' on the internet that backstabbed her as the person who indirectly cause 安在焕 's death. She hung herself in the bathroom.

张彩苑- (Oct 3rd) She is one of the denatured entertainer like 河立秀. She didn't cope well with the pressure of her relationship and people's teases and chose to follow the others' footsteps, ended up committed suicide.

金智厚- (Oct 7th) He publicly acknowledged himself was homosexual. Since then his star way started to be blocked, the discrimination and the criticism sound were unceasing. He chose to hung himself in the end.

I must admit that we will never know what each of them had went through and suffered. A star road was never easy to be walked. Yes indeed, even as students we ourselves had faced so many trials and errors. For the four of them, the people who suffered in the end are their family. Sigh, I sincerely pay my condolences and pray that they will get through this. For four of them, may they RIP.

So.. antidepressants and hope time.

Antidepressants :provide the relief from psychological and physical symptoms, enhancing functional capacity and reduces the likelihood of suicide.

Examples: Monoamine oxidase inhibitors, phenelzine, paroxetine

Adverse effects: Hyperreflexia, clonus, tremor, shivering, sweating, fever, diarrhoea.

Hope : Hope implies perseverance. Hope is holding on when you cannot see the outcome, truly believe and having the faith that the good day will come.

Examples: -We live by faith, not by sight. 2 Corinthians 5:7

-Two blind men pleaded for mercy:"Do you believe that I am able to do this? Yes, Lord," they replied. Then he touched their eyes and said, "According to your faith will it be done to you." Matthew 9:28-29

Adverse effects: If you do not stand firm in your faith, you will not stand at all.Isaiah 7:9

So far without the symptoms of depression, I personally chose hope and faith in God. Our faith releases God's power to perform these magnificent miracles. It's not about believing in the miracle. It's not about believing in the chance or probability. It's not about believing I have to receive my miracle. At times, it's not even about the miracle and wanting it. It's about believing in MY God to do this. I HAVE HOPE! Amen!

Life breaks us all..but many are made strong at the broken places.Challenges of life may seem overwhelming. Get ourselves moving, little by little everyday, in a positive direction, and those challenges will suddenly feel heaps smaller!( I know, its a piece of cake to say, Im in the process of learning too.) And yes, have faith, the Lord our God will always shine his blessings and guidance on us!

*Thought of the Day: The pessimist sees difficulty in every opportunity. The optimist sees the opportunity in every difficulty.- LJ

El bendijo little girl

2008-10-10T19:40:00.003+08:00

Did you ever wonder where the time has gone? In fact, it has not gone anywhere. Time keeps coming in an endless procession, and as soon as one stage is finished, there's another journey waiting for you. This is exactly how I feel now.

The other day I was literally forced by ZL to take a glimpse at my own teen blog that I wrote years ago. And yes,I was totally embarrassed about it. It was so dodgy and corny!I was giggling all the way. Yet the bright side is, I finally understand that life has brought me into another stage. At least older? (great, trying hard to spilt out the word m-a-t-u-r-e)

I always believe that the teen years of life shaped and defines what he or she truly stands for. Experiencing life at teen age was sometimes phenomenal and at other times difficult but exciting. I must admit, I had a wonderful childhood and teenager life. Though not perfect, but great enough to make me felt blessed!

the childhood me

the school photo of teenager me

Those were all history. Today is wide open. It does not have to be like yesterday, or any other day. There's more than everything you and I already know. And yes, as each day unfolds, feel what it is to be alive more profoundly than you have ever felt it before. Blessed are we to have another today and yet many more tomorrows to go!

(I wonder how would I react when I read back this blog years later...and yes, happy 1st post to myself.)

*Thought of the Day: It is easy to be hurtful and negative about our past mistakes and unhappiness. But it is more healing to see ourselves and our past in the light of experience, acceptance and growth.